From Whiplash to Lexi

Baby's new name is Lexi....Because she reminds me of a Velociraptor I thought a Jurassic Park name would be fun and if it turns out to be a boy I'll shorten it to Lex...Wanted Ellie but couldn't think of a male version....it is so funny to watch....it hand waves and head bobs

Whiplash

Meet my new baby....Whiplash.

Whiplash Venting from the Heat

I seem to be keeping my Pixar theme starting with Turbo (Jesse named him) then Hiccup (from the movie How to Train Your dragon) and now Whiplash (also from the movie Turbo).
She (just an assumption) is not as big a minute.  Supposedly 6 months old only 8.5 inches long and a hair less than an ounce.  Malnourished and dehydrated. I started her on Repta boost, baby food and small insects. I also bath her in Pedialite to help with electrolytes and rehydration. She is suppose to be here as a foster, which getting her back to rights could take months...Then I will face the question of
whether or not I can part with her....

Whiplash...about one ounce

Whiplash with Hiccup 

My big boy Turbo he is about 11 ounces

Hmmmm

I want to Thrive Not Just Survive....

Several or more months ago I heard this song and I could relate to the lyrics in a way that was almost scary...I mean who wants something this dark to be their theme song? It was not until this past Sunday that I understood why.  It had to do with the church I was attending and have been a member for almost a decade.  I want to make it understood that the church is not flawed.  It is a good church full of good people.  For whatever reason it was my time to move on and I dug in and refused.  The main reason was I didn't want to uproot or leave my older sons.  I wanted to wait until they reached an age that if they wanted to stay with or without me they could.  Plus the fact I had made this church my home and loved the members and deep down wanted to stay, that was another factor. Whatever the reason, whether it is noble or personal, when God is ready to move you the best thing to do is move.  I over stayed my welcome and grew some hard feelings and hurts along the way.... A few months ago I finally made the move away from there...it was heart wrenching and at times still is difficult, but for now I am planted where I believe God wants me to have my next chapter....I am leaving it up to him how long I stay...whether it is months or years....I'll just have to wait and see....I have thrived since taking the difficult move and I am grateful to my God for his faithfulness....

Thrive

Switchfoot

Been fighting things that I can't see in 

Like voices coming from the inside of me and 

Like doing things I find hard to believe in 

Am I myself or am I dreaming? 

I've been awake for an hour or so 

Checking for a pulse but I just don't know 

Am I a man when I feel like a ghost? 

The stranger in the mirror is wearing my clothes 

No I'm not alright 

I know that I'm not right 

A steering wheel don't mean you can drive 

A warm body don't mean I'm alive 

No I'm not alright 

I know that I'm not right 

Feels like I travel but I never arrive 

I want to thrive not just survive 

I come alive when I hear you singing 

But lately I haven't been hearing a thing and 

I get the feeling that I'm in between 

A machine and a man who only looks like me 

I try and hide it and not let it show 

But deep down inside me I just don't know 

Am I a man when I feel like a hoax? 

The stranger in the mirror is wearing my clothes 

No I'm not alright 

I know that I'm not right 

A steering wheel don't mean you can drive 

A warm body don't mean I'm alive 

No I'm not alright 

I know that I'm not right 

Feels like I travel but I never arrive 

I want to thrive not just survive 

I'm always close but I'm never enough 

I'm always in line but I'm never in love 

I get so down but I won't give up 

I get slowed down but I won't give up 

Been fighting things that I can't see in 

Like voices coming from the inside of me and 

Like doing things I find hard to believe in 

Am I myself or am I dreaming? 

No I'm not alright 

I know that I'm not right 

A steering wheel don't mean you can drive 

A warm body don't mean I'm alive 

No I'm not alright 

I know that I'm not right 

Feel like I travel but I never arrive 

I want to thrive not just survive 

I want to thrive not just survive

Video

How to Turn the Head....

Could fostering a bearded dragon be one of them?

Many times I am able to manipulate (for lack of a better word) my husband.  A woman at a local store wanted to gift me a non thriving bearded dragon. She is not sure to care for it and thinks I can help it.  I told her I would take her but as a foster.  Now I have to find a way to tell my husband so he wither thinks it is his idea or he just doesn't reject the idea all together....I pick it up on Saturday....I would love to one day become a Beardie rescue.

Losing...

I like this song Losing by Tenth Avenue North...I have been dealing with a lot of pain by someone I never believed would hurt me...it seems odd to be so bothered by the loss but the heart is a fickle beast. 

The Lyrics say Father won't you forgive them they don't know what they are doing....but what about when they do know what they are doing? What then? I know the answer...forgive anyway...but that takes grace at this point I don't have....I wish I was the person who gave everything to God...Just pray it out...unfortunately I am not there yet...but He has Grace for that too.  

 "Losing"

Click Title to Hear Song

I can't believe what she said
I can't believe what he did
Oh, don't they know it's wrong, yeah?
Don't they know it's wrong, yeah?
Maybe there's something I missed
But how could they treat me like this?
It's wearing out my heart
The way they disregard

This is love, this is hate...
We all have a choice to make

Oh, Father won't You forgive them?
They don't know what they've been doin' (oh no)
Oh, Father, give me grace to forgive them
'Cause I feel like the one losin'

Well it's only the dead that can live
But still I wrestle with this
To lose the pain that's mine
Seventy times seven times
'Cause Lord it doesn't feel right
For me to turn a blind eye
Though I guess it's not that much
When I think of what You've done.

This is love, this is hate...
We've got a choice to make

Oh, Father won't You forgive them?
They don't know what they've been doin' (oh no)
Oh, Father, give me grace to forgive them
'Cause I feel like the one losin'

Oh, no!

Why do we think that hate's gonna change their heart?
We're up in arms over wars that don't need to be fought
But pride won't let us lay our weapons on the ground
We build our bridges up but just to burn them down
We think pain is owed apologies and then it'll stop
But truth be told it doesn't matter if they're sorry or not
Freedom comes when we surrender to the sound
Of mercy and Your grace, Father, send Your angels down


Oh, Father won't you forgive them?
They don't know what they've been doin' (oh no)
Oh, Father, give me grace to forgive them
'Cause I feel like the one losin'
Yeah, I feel like I've been losing

Oh, Father, give me grace to forgive them
'Cause I feel like the one losin'
I feel like I've been losin'

Oh, Father, give me grace to forgive them
'Cause I feel like the one losin'

Hiccup

I love her ...
I adopted my little Hiccup on September 11, 2013.  She was bought as a rescue from Craigslist and then later gifted to me.  I wanted to name here Opie (thought she was a boy) but it didn't fit so I named her Hiccup after the lead character in How to Train Your Dragon.

September 11 this is what she came home in

She was so tiny

Just a fraction of Turbo

During the first week home

She could fit in a cat food bowl! She loves her food!

Out for a stroll

Getting bigger...a whole ounce!

Sweet Girl loves attention

Hiccup Today- She is shedding

October 22
She has gotten bigger, but changed just a little in a month and 11 days