I feel frightened most of the time. I feel everything I try is doomed to failure. My youngest son does not belong in public school and I am struggling to get us back on track with homeschooling. I know we can accomplish great things, I just have to figure out how. When I started this I knew it would not always be easy but I knew he would be a good student. I just have tp step up to be a good leader.
Debt is mounting daily. I am trying to help us out with my part time job but it feels like trying to dig a hole with the tide coming in.
My anxiety and depression his crippling. There are days I just want it all to end. Just go to sleep and not wake up. The weird part is, even though I see death as an escape, I truly don't want to die.
I have lost people in the past and the pain I feel without them I do not want to put the on someone else. Prayer and the thoughts of my family, the people I love and cherish keep me here. Even though here at times is unbearable.
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