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I'm thinking this should be my last post. Looking back on this blog, it is a whine fest...not the person I am or desire to be. I have actually closed the top on my computer and realized there is life beyond a monitor and keyboard. I have been investing my time in my home, family, friends and my relationship with Jesus. The further I get from what I became the closer I get to recognizing myself.
I'm not blaming the computer for my neglect, it defiantly has it's place in society and in my life, but, for me, it was overshadowing my life. I had withdrawn from the real world, my family and I had forgotten my identity in Christ. He has been reminding me of who I am and who he has called me to be. I am a warrior. I am to pray, to stand in the gap for others. I know it is time I got back to that. Although it is not a glamorous calling, it is an important one...I still struggle with "Fear of Man" when praying in public...my prayer for myself is courage, confidence and sensitivity to the Holy Spirit. God has forgiven me for my mistakes as have I finally forgiven myself, one less stronghold the enemy has on my life...My struggle with depression appears to be behind me. With submitting to over 3 years of treatment I am no longer on any medications to alter my brain chemistry. It must have been the right time, I had little withdraw from Wellbutrin and none from Zoloft. My thoughts are clearer, memory is stronger and concentration is greatly improved. Energy levels seems to be an issue...in a good way...sitting and typing or watching television for an extended amount of time is nearly impossible. I'm always on the move. Instead of drugs, I pray, exercise and take a time out when things get overwhelming. Lately I have been getting my little one to bed by eight so I can have one on one time with my ninth grader. I am on a positive and doable schedule to help me use my time wisely and I have put my older boys on a schedule to help with house hold chores...they are doing it and I am feeling incredibly less stress.
I have been reading simple Bible teachings on
Great Bible Studies. I linked it here in case someone else can use a refresher...these teachings are things I already knew about Spiritual Warfare, condemnation and guilt but somehow put a pin in it and forgotten simple truths. The mind is truly a battlefield and thoughts have to be evaluated and either accepted or dismissed. Making the right choice and letting go of the past is crucial to avoid stronghold that Satan or his army to torment a soul. Does it line up with what God has to say about me? Does it make me feel like a loser? Does it make me feel like the princess I am? Three easy steps to confirm condemnation.
Anyway...closing shop and facing the world..."Living and Loving This Charming Life"
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