Jesse....

In 2008 I received a very unexpected surprise, pregnant at 42.  My feelings about this midlife child would go from elation to distress.  I had (what felt like) a long pregnancy followed by a difficult delivery.  His entrance was not easy on him either.  He was born purple and non responsive.  The nurses work on him for several minutes and he perked up.  Midnight on January 1st 2009 he had his first doctors appointment.  Dr. Meyers, his pediatrician was called in to check him out.  He had a bum arm do to shoulder dysplasia, fortunately, that healed on it's on given time.

It has been a little over 3 years since we welcomed Jesse to our family.  I found most of the first few years to be mere survival.  PPD stole a lot of the joy that I should have experienced. A gift such as this is meant to be cherished.  Though it all I did adore him. With a little help I think the days of depression are behind me.

Jesse's First Christmas

Now I am the mom of a vibrant three year old, who holds my heart in the palm of his hand.  Jesse and I do everything together...

Jesse age 2

These days I am living rather than surviving.  Rather than praying for bedtime to come, I look forward to the mornings.  I have my whole day wrapped around him.  Looking for openings for teaching, playing and lots of affection.  He, like his brothers, is a wonderful blessing in my life.

My four men...winter break 2011

Jesse with his wild hair and clutch of chicken eggs

This Charming Life

Joan Armatrading

I wanna be with you all the time
Every day
Every night
You're my deja vu
It's sounds obsessive
But I think it's fine
When you're gone all I do is to think of you

I live and love with you
This charming life
I live and love with you
This charming life


You know you came into the room alone
But when you left
Then I found that you took my heart
It sounds so corny yes I know it does
But truth is the shade that I choose to wear


I live and love with you
This charming life
I live and love with you
This charming life


Every government must pass down a law
That says the sun has to always shine
That everybody gets the chance to say


I live and love with you
This charming life
I live and love with you
This charming life


Every morning when I open my eyes
You're the first thing that I see
Lady luck she really took to me
Because
I live and love with you
This charming life
I live and love with you
This charming life