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| To my love....glad we celebrate people years! |
Saturday, June 30, 2012
Friday, June 29, 2012
Quittin' Time
Again, I went digging through old CDs, I stubbled upon the Essentials
of Mary Chapin Carpenter...I thought I would share another song...
Quittin' Time
Mary Chapin Carpenter
Hey baby tell me what we're gonna do
It's getting crazy and I need some help from you
We were so connected that you were a part of me
Now I feel an emptiness right to the heart of me
But you pretend and I pretend
That everything is fine
And though we should be at an end
It's so hard admittin'
When it's quittin' time
Hey baby I'm running out of things to say
Please don't hate me this feeling just won't go away
Now we're spending all our time caught in a fantasy
Just trying to keep in mind the way it used to be
But you pretend and I pretend
That everything is fine
And though we should be at an end
It's so hard admittin'
When it's quittin' time
But you pretend and I pretend
That everything is fine
And though we should be at an end
It's so hard admittin'
When it's quittin' time
It's getting crazy and I need some help from you
We were so connected that you were a part of me
Now I feel an emptiness right to the heart of me
But you pretend and I pretend
That everything is fine
And though we should be at an end
It's so hard admittin'
When it's quittin' time
Hey baby I'm running out of things to say
Please don't hate me this feeling just won't go away
Now we're spending all our time caught in a fantasy
Just trying to keep in mind the way it used to be
But you pretend and I pretend
That everything is fine
And though we should be at an end
It's so hard admittin'
When it's quittin' time
But you pretend and I pretend
That everything is fine
And though we should be at an end
It's so hard admittin'
When it's quittin' time
Life Long Plans
Why is letting go so hard?
I think part of the reason I have been so frustrated with AJ these last few weeks was a way for me to guard my heart from feeling what I feel as I am trying to help him succeed. It is very difficult for me to find my place in the life of my eldest son. He is in Lima this weekend at a conference and of course enjoying his Elim friends. Doug and I were not going to let him go but decided that he is old enough and responsible enough to take my car and be on his own.... I was sad all day yesterday....wishing this time didn't slip away so fast. Wyatt is a lot of help. Only fourteen he is still young and sweet and I am cherishing the time I have him as my own. Jesse is my biggest comfort....I look at him and I am reminded of the beautiful memories I have of AJ when he was little...not that I don't adore Jesse for who he is.
My sons. I am their first love, I gave them their first kiss and mine was the first hand that they held. I knew going into this motherhood, that the ultimate goal was to see them become independent men....What a blessing to see AJ become his own person. I just never knew how heart breaking it would be.
Father please show me how to be a mother to a young adult son. Whisper to me when to let go and when it is okay to be a mom...I gave him to you when he was two and I need your help through this transition. Please keep your hand on him.
I think part of the reason I have been so frustrated with AJ these last few weeks was a way for me to guard my heart from feeling what I feel as I am trying to help him succeed. It is very difficult for me to find my place in the life of my eldest son. He is in Lima this weekend at a conference and of course enjoying his Elim friends. Doug and I were not going to let him go but decided that he is old enough and responsible enough to take my car and be on his own.... I was sad all day yesterday....wishing this time didn't slip away so fast. Wyatt is a lot of help. Only fourteen he is still young and sweet and I am cherishing the time I have him as my own. Jesse is my biggest comfort....I look at him and I am reminded of the beautiful memories I have of AJ when he was little...not that I don't adore Jesse for who he is.
My sons. I am their first love, I gave them their first kiss and mine was the first hand that they held. I knew going into this motherhood, that the ultimate goal was to see them become independent men....What a blessing to see AJ become his own person. I just never knew how heart breaking it would be.
Father please show me how to be a mother to a young adult son. Whisper to me when to let go and when it is okay to be a mom...I gave him to you when he was two and I need your help through this transition. Please keep your hand on him.
Thursday, June 28, 2012
Woes of Country Living
Apparently I have more predators in my woods than I imagined. I have lost Bennett and Little Red a few weeks ago. My best friend, Irene, gave me two little black hens. I dubbed them Alice and Andi but the same night I brought them home they escaped the coupe and one was believes to have been eaten and the other I found the next morning and was gang beaten by my other five hens as soon as I put her in the pen. She was returned to Irene's barn and I hope she is alive and well. Yesterday Abby disappeared and this morning I found Lou Lou injured by something inside the coupe. The attacks multiplying and now in daylight as well as inside their pen had me concerned for the well being of my tiny flock. I cannot just wait and let them be picked off one by one. I spent the afternoon moving and securing the chicken house (little tykes playhouse) in our back yard as far away from the house as possible and still be in the fenced area....
My hope is that whatever is enjoying my birds will be to afraid to come this close to the house. I will close them up in their house at night. If push come to shove I will give away Marcella, Helen, Lois and Lou Lou if she survives.
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I think Lou Lou will live...I plan to bandage her up and let her go back with the others tomorrow... Marcella is among the missing....Praying she will show up tomorrow...somehow I have my doubts.
Wednesday, June 27, 2012
My Newest Mission
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| Really bad, but funny |
This weekend my husband showed classic signs of depression. I was very worried and because of that I have decided that he needs to be a priority in my life. He is in a job that he is less than happy in, yet he goes everyday and pushes through his occupation. He is a dedicated person and would never let our family down by not providing for us financially. I am doing everything in my power to make his home life pleasant. I will do my best to be home when he gets home to spend some quality time with him as well as care for our house, kids and cooking hearty meals. I know it sounds like I am putting too much on my and I may be, but for now this man needs to know how much he is loved and for him and his Love Language (Five Love Languages by Gary Chapman) are quality time and physical touch. Having that knowledge helps me to know what makes him feel appreciated.
Interesting Redbook article : What Men Want-How to Romance a Man
Monday, June 25, 2012
Word Spirit Power
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| Click here to read about the book |
Our church hosted a dynamic conference this weekend. Three men of God R.T. Kendall, Charles Carrin and Jack Taylor. I was able to hear tow out of three on Friday night, but was needed in the kitchen to get their after service meal ready to serve. I enjoyed Sunday morning and Sunday evening, I felt Doug needed me at home. Sunday morning I had nursery duty. It was an amazing time and many people were blessed during the conference. It is a small miracle for a country church the size of ours to be able to host such a gathering.
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