Letting Go My Worries

So I can enjoy my today...

We can only plan and hope for the best...who really knows what's coming next?

Anyone who knows me even a little bit knows I have control issues.  Not sure if it is just how I am wired or how I was raised but I find myself in a world of chaos because I have so much trouble trusting that God has my life under control.  As I have posted before we are making plans to leave Central New York to live back in the Southern states.  At this point in time, our plans are for Northwest Alabama, within 2 hours of my siblings and (if there is an opening at Doug's current company in Gadsden less than an hour commute for him).  But, we could land anywhere really, Virginia, Tennessee maybe Georgia or a Carolina.  Or if our plans are not God's we will find a way to be satisfied here.

Our home in Central NY

My biggest concern, I feel, is the selling of our home.  It is a lovely place.  A large four bedroom Colonial with a full basement and two car garage siting on 7 acres of land. Just one mile from town and quiet! Who wouldn't want to live here? Some updates could be made, but again, if God is in it he will have a buyer standing by.

Meanwhile I am continuing with my plans to clear out the clutter and downsize the personal belongings.  I still plan to get a full-time job in the Fall and to pay off our debt and save as much as we can. If our plans fall through then at least we will be living better because we will be debt free. Maybe Doug can change jobs regardless where we live. I am ready to have a normal life, where he is by my side instead of only seeing each other a few hours a day.  I have spent the last 14 years in the roll of a married, single parent.

We are actually looking to downsize our home and land.  As the boys continue to grow up and Doug and I grow old, we need less house and land to worry about keeping up.  We don't expect AJ to live with us long after the move and Wyatt may be starting college...Jesse will only be seven...we still have a long time with him.

I love this little house in Anniston lot is a little less than a half acre. 3 bedroom  and 2 baths.

That is my declaration. For today I am choosing to do what I feel needs to be to make our dream become a reality in a trusting fashion, remembering God loves me and my family and will do what is best for us even if it doesn't fulfill our desires.