Tuesday, April 29, 2014

Pour Me Something Stronger Than Me






Here I go again 
Walking the line killing time between my sins
Oh, why do I come here?
The ending is still the same
I’m bring back old tears
I act like I don’t know
Where this road will go
Pour me something stronger, pour me something straight
All these crooked voices, make them go away
I can barely stand up
I can hardly breathe
Pour me something stronger than mePour me something stronger than me
Sunrise hurts as much as you

You always come up when I don’t want you to
Oh, I can still hear you say
That you and I will both be off this way
Pour me something stronger,
Pour me something dark.
Pour it up so high so I can’t feel my heart.
I can barely stand up.
I can barely breathe.
Pour me something stronger than me.


  Connie Britton 

    Nashville Cast Cover




Monday, April 28, 2014

I Have Never Had a Sense of Belonging...


Heflin Alabama


....here in the State of NY.  I have tried....a few years back after a trip home I had made up my mind that I had to make NewYork my home and the church I was in my family.  I went to and joined into a baptism ceremony that somehow, for me, was significant for my new commitment.
I think I know the reason it never took, why I never really fit...and that is because I just don't belong here.  You can try, you can force a square peg into a round hole, but it will never be a comfortable fit and can cause permeant damage to the square and the hole. Maybe that is why I don't have the deep relationships I so long to have...I am sure I was supposed to be here for a season, but I don't think I was meant to stay my life time.

My husband shared with me that he is ready to leave NYS too. So we are on a 2 year plan starting with cleaning and emptying the house...Selling what I can and giving away and throwing away what I can't...simplifying what we are keeping.  That is what I will do this spring and summer and hopefully next summer the house will be ready to go on the market. In the fall I pray to find a full time job so we can continue to get out of debt and start to save money....
We are looking at Northwest Alabama.  I have already been looking at real estate in that area. So with God's grace we will be relocating to my southern roots the summer of 2016.

#just2moreyears

I'm asking for prayers for this new journey for me and my family.  My middle son is unsure although we are waiting for him to graduate high school before the move.  I need God's guidance for every step.

I'm Moving On

I'm sure I have posted this before but somedays I feel it more than others


"I'm Moving On"
Rascal Flats



I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I'm at peace with myself
I've been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long
I'm movin' on

I've lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but they're always the same
They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it
They'll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong
I'm movin' on

I'm movin' on
At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone
There comes a time in everyone's life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone

I sold what I could and packed what I couldn't
Stopped to fill up on my way out of town
I've loved like I should but lived like I shouldn't
I had to lose everything to find out
Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road
I'm movin' on

I'm movin' on
I'm movin' on



Monday, April 14, 2014

Meet Buddy




My oldest son, AJ, adopted a dog this week.  His name is Buddy, we all agreed that it is a stupid name for a dog, but despite our best efforts to change it, he remains Buddy.
He is about 8 months old...with a lab face and a pit body...he appears to be a harmless sack of love...and he doesn't realize how big he is as you can see in this picture, he is snuggled in my lap.

Wednesday, April 2, 2014

Hold On

 



If you want to keep a woman like me, you got to hold on
If you want to see how good it can be, baby, hold on
All my friends think that I'm a fool
I tell you something honey, they're not that cool
If you want to keep a woman like me, you better hold on

If you want to know how far we can go, you got to hold on
If you take it slow then I got something to show you
Baby, hold on
All those girls with their empty heads
Can't fill 'em up with the lies they've been fed
If you want to know how far I can go, you got to hold on

She'll give you reasons for her kind
You might believe it, but I'm not that blind

If you think you need a woman like me, you better hold on
If you want to find what I've got on my mind, baby, hold on
All this small talk that keeps us apart
Is only hiding how we feel in our hearts
If you want to keep a woman like me, baby, hold on

~Roseanne Cash

The First Taste of Spring